I think once this money comes through I'm going to quit my job and take a month off.

Yesterday my boss called me out (over the radio 🙄) for something I did wrong. Thing is they change the procedures every week because of management issues/disputes and nobody told me so I just kept doing things the way I knew to do them. It was rude because she was making fun of me and making other people "do my job" instead of just coming up to me and saying, hey this is how we do this now.

And I never know what I'm walking into. Some days it's a week's worth of mess and I quietly pick up the slack because I get paid the same either way. I'm trying to be a teammate. But a lot of times they'll try to blame me for what I walk into. Or blame me for something done wrong when I wasn't even there.

I don't think, in over a year, that anyone has ever even told me thank you or complimented my hard work.

I know they don't like me. I don't like my job or my bosses but I still show up, still do a little more than I'm supposed to because that's me.

It seems like sometimes they really set me up to fail. I've tried depersonalizing everyone's bad days, grumpy moods, jealousy and rude attitudes to the point I feel nothing. It's not a good job. They're always shorthanded and make the youngins work open to close. The big store manager doesn't even work, I don't understand how that is possible, but he must watch the cameras at home.

I'm also very sick of tourists and consumers who care so much about clothes they're mad when we don't have a size or they treat me like garbage because they're on vacation.

I can't not work. It's not that much money and I don't mind work. Just sick of this town and trying to survive in a sea of people who only think about themselves.

I want to enjoy the weekends with my son for once. I want to catch up on the pain management and get enough sleep. And I'm tired of being treated like an idiot by idiots.