What do i even do anymore?

https://youtu.be/b-EdiXP87uE?si=1OS-eKt6G-vNE49w__Take Bluto's advice. :)

I can empathize, had a situation like that when I was around your age as well, it sucked. It was like a pit in my stomach everyday having to go to school, not knowing what next crappy thing was going to happen. I really started isolating myself and just avoiding others. Eventually things did change, maybe after about a year and life really did get better.

I do not have any great advice, just have to bear through it, but it will not stay that way forever. I know you said distractions are not working, what I would suggest is that you just start seeing those "friends" as not friends anymore. Just cut them out, no more association with them If it means being alone that is better than being around toxic people. Find different groups to hang out with, I mean like social groups that you can join for activities that would share an interest you have. See if you can talk to a therapist, or if that is not an option a school counselor.

Sorry people suck sometimes.. don't off yourself tho .. try to get through to better days .. it’s tough when things are bleak and toxic but it can get better 🤐 just hold onto hope and life maybe try to find better friends that aren't backstabbing gossipers

Those things that happened, that caused all of this, they are history now. They can only affect you if you let them. Distance yourself from those "friends" for a few months, they will forget or lose interest, and you have to stop thinking about it. Whenever you start to think about it remind yourself not to.
It sounds stupid but it can work, don't think about it, not even one second. Think about a fuzzy kitty nuzzling your neck and purring. That is a good memory to hold onto (or something similar).