Looking back at my life

If i think about when it started i think its from the point i was a kid and this has followed me everywhere i go, like i have to be the one who always apologizes and has to let go of things to maintain relations with people mostly friendships i just feel so exhausted of having to be the one who understands and lets go of things nd adjusts all the time i feel like my soul is hurt now and dont want any relation whatsoever cz this never ends well no matter how much i do for others and try to keep things good they just end up hurting me and the people cant just let go of one thing i said or did that wasnt even that much of a big deal but i overlooked theirs a million times.