I need guiadance abt relationships and life

Hey everyone this will be a long one,im a 17 year old living in eastern europe and i have so many feelings,honestly i dont think im unatractive but i lack love,i might seem like a looser and all but ive also atempted twice already because i also used to be bullied,i also feel like my friends refuse to go out with me for some reason,i am writing this with tears in my eyes as i have no where else to vent to.thank you for listening