Tired and sick of life

I’ve been alive for 4,631 days. Yay? I’m supposed to be happy, right?? Well, I’m not. Overly strict parents that doesn’t even let me have my opinion, wanting to d*e but fear I’ll regret it later. I’m a bit of a religious person, honestly. I think I have been a bad person and won’t even make it to heaven. My parents actually don’t know I’m trying my best. I can’t tell them because they would think I’m being a brat and also won’t get me a therapist. No siblings, fun, right? No, it would be nice to have someone my age to talk to irl. Anger issues are getting worse. I screamed at my father and regretted it immediately. My peers and friends barely listen to me either. This is the reason why I’m on this app. Maybe to find someone I can vent to or at least someone who relates. Thank you for taking time to read this post. I appreciate you.