i hate myself

i just needed to type all of this out im a freak to getting into the top 3 so when i heard today when i could possibly get into top 3 because spot number 2 was tied i was so happy then it turned out that i couldnt because if there are two top 2 then there is no 3rd place i then came home so upset then my dad which didnt visit me in so long finally came and visited jst to get smth for him or sum then he scolded me and said you're so usseles or however u spell it and he said why am i always on my phone and i should do something better with my life and why do i know nothing aqnd when will i get a job (im not even a teen yet) then i got scammed for 18$ maybe its little for some people but im not even a teen yet so thats a lot for me then my friends honestly they act like they hate me sure im considered popular but some of my close friends are so distant now omg and i found out that my cat which ran away might have died i loved her so much and my parents are arguing again and my relatives probably talk shit about me why am i never enough never enough for school never enough for my family never enough for my friends never enough for society never enough for myself.