Venting about life

I'm just depressed I recently found out I been dating a pedo and I rlly loved him and his mates lied to me and I was venting to my ex and he said I'm doing it for attention and I'm not allowed to use snap I'm allowed to use it after 1 month but I can't stop thinking bout snap cuz I like texting online people and if it's not good but I can't stop cuz my irl mates don't rlly mssg me I just wanna kms