After five years of up and down and off and on, I kinda want to ghost him.

I have no respect left for him. I don't care to argue with him for his scraps anymore. To be brought to his level. To beg him, for him. He makes me feel like a forgotten broken thing he keeps because he can't part with what I give. He's brought up moving in together and marriage many times and it makes me disgusted to think about marrying someone who would most definitely abandon me if I needed his help and support. Growing old with him would be hell. I've let this go far too long.

I have said enough. I have tried. I just want to be gone.