Complexity of humans emotions

Happiness is a myth, it doesn’t even matter what mankind’s ideals are but for some reason it becomes a big impact to people’s lives. It’s honestly annoying and I just want to go to somewhere else, a place without ideals and expectations. That would be like the best prize a person who doesn’t want to expect anything more from their life could ever get. But if what I said about happiness is a myth then all of those emotions humans are feeling are also a myth too, isn’t it? However, there’s no place to deny that you’re still feeling it, and to be honest? I don’t really like feeling it. Being said that I’m feeling the kind of emptiness in my heart but all it is just an overwhelming feeling that’s hard to be explained, isn’t it? What a joke, a really sick joke. It’s like some kind of something that humans were bound for. To surrender with their own thoughts and feelings no matter how hard a person trying to deny it. I want to be better but I also don’t want to be cured with what I am. I’m not satisfied but I’m comfortable with it. Or maybe the feeling of emptiness was real?