Help, my heart is beating way too fast...
My mother yelled at my paternal grandma yesterday.
See, my mother has been talking about how my paternal grandma has not been helping out with most of the housework. When my maternal grandma came to stay with us a month ago, things were so much better and house chores could be done so much faster (Ok except for the fact that my maternal grandmother would do the house chores whenever she got bored lol), but when my paternal grandma came... things just didn't get done as quickly as it was. This was what my mom was super upset about, and she's ranted this to me quite a few times.
So things actually reached the final straw yesterday. The trash wasn't taken out. And my mother was really busy yesterday. so she didn't have time. She had hoped that my paternal grandma would have taken it out but by the time we came home, it was still there, overflown.
So when I was changing in my bedroom, I heard my mother yelling at her, somewhere along the lines of "If you claim this is your house, why don't you do the housework?!" Then my grandma was telling her that her arm were sore (i don't really remember her doing anything in the house that made her arm sore.), and a few minutes later i could hear ssobbing; not from my mothher, but from my grandmother as she went into her room. (I know this because I've heard my mother cry before a few years ago before the pandemic.)
I was really shaken by the incident last night. I couldn't even leave my bedroom after 20 whole minutes. I had to talk to 2 friends last night just to calm myself down and i felt like this was all my fault somehow. I mean, knowing my mother's stress, I should have done something to avoid this whole thing. Like taken out the trash instead of her. I may be going back to my other friend about this situation because my heart is beating too fast and I can't sseem to find a way to calm down or take thhe thought out of my head.
I really didn't like this incident, because i suspect i have some trauma over conflicts and maybe that's why i hate conflicts, even if it doesnt involve me.
Is anyone even listening to my rants on this forum?
See, my mother has been talking about how my paternal grandma has not been helping out with most of the housework. When my maternal grandma came to stay with us a month ago, things were so much better and house chores could be done so much faster (Ok except for the fact that my maternal grandmother would do the house chores whenever she got bored lol), but when my paternal grandma came... things just didn't get done as quickly as it was. This was what my mom was super upset about, and she's ranted this to me quite a few times.
So things actually reached the final straw yesterday. The trash wasn't taken out. And my mother was really busy yesterday. so she didn't have time. She had hoped that my paternal grandma would have taken it out but by the time we came home, it was still there, overflown.
So when I was changing in my bedroom, I heard my mother yelling at her, somewhere along the lines of "If you claim this is your house, why don't you do the housework?!" Then my grandma was telling her that her arm were sore (i don't really remember her doing anything in the house that made her arm sore.), and a few minutes later i could hear ssobbing; not from my mothher, but from my grandmother as she went into her room. (I know this because I've heard my mother cry before a few years ago before the pandemic.)
I was really shaken by the incident last night. I couldn't even leave my bedroom after 20 whole minutes. I had to talk to 2 friends last night just to calm myself down and i felt like this was all my fault somehow. I mean, knowing my mother's stress, I should have done something to avoid this whole thing. Like taken out the trash instead of her. I may be going back to my other friend about this situation because my heart is beating too fast and I can't sseem to find a way to calm down or take thhe thought out of my head.
I really didn't like this incident, because i suspect i have some trauma over conflicts and maybe that's why i hate conflicts, even if it doesnt involve me.
Is anyone even listening to my rants on this forum?
13-15, F
