Feeling out of place

I just feel like I don't belong anywhere. My life is pretty chill and I have never lived anything so terrible (I still went through experiences but it's fine) but I've just always felt apart and I hate that. I know I'm not special or different than any other humans but I've always felt like it, and not like something that feels good and I wish it would stop because I feel invalid for that as if it's just a teen whinning. I've always struggled with social interactions and I still do at 17yo. I'm very awkward all the time and end up feeling lonely despite having friends etc. It's like, no one ever choses me and I choose everyone. I feel like I can never do things "normally", and it regards litteraly everything. I think I'm trans but I can't feel comfortable being trans just as I don't feel comfortable being non binary or cis. I "fit in" and at the same time I wish I could runaway from there to just feel good and stop feeling overwhelmed by everything, stop overthinking everything and relapsing into sad episodes all the time, I love my friends but I can never seem to belong with anyone. I fit in but I don't belong there, somehow. I just feel out of place, if that makes anysense I feel like I'm in a cell all the time. I want to just disappear into the forest and live the rest of my life there or just free my soul from my body. I think I've felt like that since I'm little.