I hate feeling this stupid when I don't think I am this stupid

Everybody is smart in different ways or have different IQs and that's fine. Where I learn now, I can clearly see I'm a different type of smart than the others and I hate it. Because the type of smart I isn't the type of smart I should be there, și I end up feeling stupid.
All I have to learn are things I'm not good at that others ace with ease and I have to work hours and cry because I don't understand what's in front of me and there's no one I can ask to help me understand.
I am in Highschool and I csnt stand school anymore, it's too broken for me. But I have to go to college and that only makes me want to not be here.

I am probably exaggerating but I am indeed writting this while feeling extremely sad.