1.40 a.m. , venting
I want to do SH I want to do Sh I want to do SH I want to do SH I want to do SH
My heart is drowning and disappearing. I can never feel comfortable, I am ashamed of myself how many times a day, I don't know how many times I have anxiety attacks.
I'm so confused. Whatever I do, they will be angry with me, whatever I do, they will be ashamed of me.
It's very difficult to act happy. It's even harder to be blamed and yelled at when I cry. I'm tired of trying to make my family not be sad, my mother to be happy, and my father to be proud of me.
I have a headache, I want to beat my head on the marble and make it bleed.
I won't be at peace, my heart won't be at peace until I see the bleeding on my arms
I want to bite the marble and break my jaw
My heart is drowning and disappearing. I can never feel comfortable, I am ashamed of myself how many times a day, I don't know how many times I have anxiety attacks.
I'm so confused. Whatever I do, they will be angry with me, whatever I do, they will be ashamed of me.
It's very difficult to act happy. It's even harder to be blamed and yelled at when I cry. I'm tired of trying to make my family not be sad, my mother to be happy, and my father to be proud of me.
I have a headache, I want to beat my head on the marble and make it bleed.
I won't be at peace, my heart won't be at peace until I see the bleeding on my arms
I want to bite the marble and break my jaw
