Hey, man. My boyfriend went through the exact same thing as you, with the situationship and all. Best advice to give you is that you should leave her. Forget about her. You'll only end up hurt and for what? If she truly liked you, she would've told you that she did and would drop this stupid situation thing. There's no reason to drag love on forever just because you're not ready. You'd hurt the other person like that. I understand you like her but, does she like you? It's risky and situationships should never be a thing. You either love that person and you start a life together or leave it if you're not ready. The love of your life will come soon and I can assure you that. It all just takes time, man. Think about what I said and see if you'll be able to do it, it's tough but worth it. The one for you will come into your life and she will be great to you, I promise. Be safe though, okay? Don't continue the situation. Feels like she's taking advantage of you. Take care of yourself please and notice your self worth. I'll be by your side through thick and thin.