Slowly drifting away from my circle of friends and now I'm lonely
I have 2 close friends and this one girl who would randomly ignore us for no reason for weeks. She's one of my close friends also but we weren't really close. We would bond and laugh together but sometimes we had differences and would not talk much outside school. She wasn't the type of person who would say sorry easily or own up to her mistakes.
A few months ago I was dealing with family issues and my other friend said something that I wasn't happy with. I don't remember but after that, I didn't talk to them for a few days. I told them beforehand that I just needed to cool off because I didn't want to hurt them. Eventually, I cooled down and apologized but I couldn't get the courage to talk to that one girl. It felt like she didn't want to talk to me. Time passed and I wanted to talk to her and apologize because I missed her. But before I talked to her, I asked my friends if she ever missed me or talked about me. They did ask her about me and all she said was "You win some, you lose some" and said that If I didn't talk to her then she wouldn't talk either. I felt so betrayed and Angry. We would always try to reach her whenever she Ignored us and she would always talk to us again like nothing happened but if it was the other way around, she wouldn't even care(at least for me).
We now ignore each other while chatting with our friends but they would always talk to her more than me. I knew that the 2 of them were closer to her after our situation(and my house is far away from the 3 of them) so I slowly prepared my heart if ever one day they would shut me out completely. But sometimes I get jealous when they talk about their get-togethers or how they talk about things that I don't know about. They had more things in common so I would just look at their chats and just get information from their conversation. I yearn to just fit in and be together with them again.
A few months ago I was dealing with family issues and my other friend said something that I wasn't happy with. I don't remember but after that, I didn't talk to them for a few days. I told them beforehand that I just needed to cool off because I didn't want to hurt them. Eventually, I cooled down and apologized but I couldn't get the courage to talk to that one girl. It felt like she didn't want to talk to me. Time passed and I wanted to talk to her and apologize because I missed her. But before I talked to her, I asked my friends if she ever missed me or talked about me. They did ask her about me and all she said was "You win some, you lose some" and said that If I didn't talk to her then she wouldn't talk either. I felt so betrayed and Angry. We would always try to reach her whenever she Ignored us and she would always talk to us again like nothing happened but if it was the other way around, she wouldn't even care(at least for me).
We now ignore each other while chatting with our friends but they would always talk to her more than me. I knew that the 2 of them were closer to her after our situation(and my house is far away from the 3 of them) so I slowly prepared my heart if ever one day they would shut me out completely. But sometimes I get jealous when they talk about their get-togethers or how they talk about things that I don't know about. They had more things in common so I would just look at their chats and just get information from their conversation. I yearn to just fit in and be together with them again.
