You are so young with so much life ahead of you that is full of opportunities to be happy. Don't despair nor give up on yourself. Don't let depression bury you any deeper. You can climb out of it and you know it. Practice daydreaming daily, visualize a future that you would love to have and focus on just that. Forget the past, use the present wisely and effectively, work hard now to get you the future you want. Praying helps, believe it or not. Be strong and brave and never lose hope. Good luck.

So many are lonely and are in depression and hence all therapists are engaged and they are now getting mentally deranged. And there are also many quacks online as the demand is simply phenomenal.

But there is a therapist in you where you can heal others whereby you can heal yourself.