I wanna kms.

Tbh i hate. HATE. opening up abt my feelings and why i wanna kms. It sucks bc no one understands im autistic w/ADHD and thats not they way my brain and feelings are wired. Some ppl think its weird but im trying to do things on my own/have people understand how i calm down. For ex; i calm myself down by opening a window, dangling my feet from it, and listening to music while staring at the sky. Or running a soft new paintbrush over my skin and sit on the floor. How s1 i trust calms me down is dif, ex; ask me questions abt things i like because it takes my attention away from sadness. Like space,science,art,nature,stars,black rooms,my opinion on smth. Idek.