Random vent

Ever feel bad for being an empath? Feeling emotions. Loving people with your heart to realise you're just one pawn in their life or maybe a "replacement".

I'm tired of it. Tired of f*cking feeling it all. I f*cking hate emotions. I'm tired of feeling left off. Feeling discarded despite pulling the weights and sitting in a class with my hands up to show I'm there when I'm really invisible.

Gosh. It really feels empty after a while. Waking up everyday to ensure myself that everyone out there is a liar lol. This way, I don't need to trust anyone. And in this dumb equation, all I did was just trust people. Give them my heart lol.

Lame joke but I wish I were de*d than do that.

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

I hate involuntarily mirroring emotions. Especially crying. I wasn't like that before at all, this shit only happened later in my life and I don't know why. But from some point if I see someone crying or tearing up, my body often wants to do the same even if the problem of the other person is not my problem at all.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@CrazyMusicLover I can relate to it. But I can't control it. I hate that about myself. Trying to trust someone. Love someone despite knowing I'll be f *cked. But I still try. Still love and trust while I end up abandoned. Lost and broken.