I want to give up

I don't think I can do this anymore. I feel like I'm alone. I feel left out in my current friend group, there was one time when one of our friend sent a picture on our group chat with only the three of them in it. I'm always walking at the back when we walk together. When we have a table discussion I am always at the very corner with whoever I sit next to faces their back towards me. They never look for me whenever I get separated when we walk. They looked to comfortable joking around with each other while treating me with wary like I am someone who's just a +1 to the group.

I messed up during my return demonstration for oral medication, made my CI extremely mad while they shout different insults to my face. I had to right an incident report because of that. I have to see them this monday so I am now very nervous of what she might say, and I am afraid that some of my classmates will witness such humiliating scene of me. I never once failed this much all throughout my years as I student so I never really knew how to cope up with it.

Aside from that, I just found out that I actually missed 3 important assignments. I am currently still not doing any progress despite it being almost a week late already.

There's a lot going on in my family right now. I had to transfer to a dorm to protect myself from a potential danger to my mental health. So now, my mom is having trouble financially.

I don't know.

My mind feels like a mess right now and I feel so unmotivated to do anything productive yet I feel very anxious that I'm not doing anything.

I just need a break.

I don't want to worry about these stuff, I don't want to overthink.

I want to speak to someone about this so thank you for reading.