this is so annoying

I dont even know what to do rn...I have no one to really talk abt this and i dunno ig i just feel cornered ig..so im just gonna say this here... I dont even know if theyre actually TALKING about me or not Like they would say out pocket stuff and they would make fun of 1of their tutor classmates and how he speaks or his special needs and also 1of our teachers..Like i legit do not care about it, and the 2nd classmate was always kinda like that(?) Like would make jokes even abt himself for laughs and as ive said make remarks about like our teachers hair and race but i feel like the 1st classmate always had a problem with me or whatever..Like ig cause i would not really talk/speak to them or would be like ignoring him or some sht..Anyways i feel like evn if the 2nd classmate doesnt really talk about it anymore the 1st one always instigates it says nga like the n word or stuff like that..and like instigates it or starts talking about it..Like always infront of me like (he thinks hes so slick) anyway ig he wants to be part of the popular group of kids anyway so he thinks saying that will make him look cooler..Like im from Phil and hes literally MORE darkskinned than me..and he would also be like in the jokes or whatever anyway it just ruins my mood and apetite..and im pretty sure they talk sht behind each others back