I’m tired of all this

Growing wasn’t easy as I did not have both my parents, I was raised by my grandparents and my mothers older sister growing up things were okay but after I completed my matric I struggled alot, I’m always being treated in a different way from the other kids ,I’m always being lashed at even if I haven’t don’t anything wrong , when going to school I’m not given money for transport , when asking for something I have to beg everytime I have to ask for something ,I go to school without any food but the other kids have , I pray to God everyday asking what did I do to deserve this, I go to bed everyday with a heavy heart and with tears every single day and I have no one to talk to , I’m always being shown that I don’t have parents and I pray to God everyday to help me but it seems like things keep getting worse everyday.