I'm tired of being ignored

So this is my first post and i dont speak english well but i try my best. As title says i'm tired of being ignored what do i mean by that? In 1-3 grade i was always picked last, no one talked to me, my friend found someone else and i was left alone. If someone says that i should make friends on that time i was very shy. But now i'm also ignored, when i vent on my discord server the reply from one person was "I have IT worse" like ok but i also can be sad with my life. Second time is when the same server i kicked one dude for bad things he said and everyone was mad at me. They made a dsc server for themselfs and talked behind my back (even wanted to throw me out out of my server). In Class i'm still ignored but now when i bring sweets or say something stupid, but when they laught from something i day IT makes me happy. Or at least i think cuz i'm always crying in home after those stupid words. Some younger kids even bully me when i litterly did nothing to them. I even punched them once but it didnt stop. My mom Had to say something to this kod. One other kid said that i have noce boobs. I was destroyed by that i just stood while everyone was walking to School i wanted to cry. I don't expect to say something but i'm tired of it all.

Orangemoon · 22-25, F

You know those bullies will regret what they did to you for the rest of their lives... At one point, we all have to take accountability for what we do in every single thing... I hope u believe in karma... I suggest you find some hobbies that u really love... Or even musician or artists... You can do things all by yourself and still have fun... It's better to go solo than to be on the wrong crowd... I suggest u try to make yourself too... Try to comfortable about yourself so you can gain confidence... Know your worth as an individual so you can stand up for yourself if people go beyond your boundaries 🤸🏼... You're still young... You still have lots of time... Enjoyyy the most of it.