Im 19 and i feel like i have wasted my life

So...I dont really know what is going on with me, some days i am happy as a daisy but on some i just feel empty and all alone. I have/had friends that i feel like were using me and i have lost most of my friends from childhood, high school and primary school. I can't make friends because i come of awkward and i dunno what to say in a convo so i avoid em like the plague. I try out new things which i eventually stop doing because i either doubt myself too much or i inhibit myself from doing nor accomplishing them.....i hate confrontations because i dont like fighting or being yelled at because i just go quiet amd mostly tear up and cry when alone......God I am misery's definition

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summalovin · 18-21, F

I’m actually on the same boat as you! I’m currently 18 years old and I am as lost as your are and that’s normal!! I like to call this the “quarter life crisis” because you don’t know what you wanna do with your life and this age is what basically depends on your choices for your future! I say take it one day at a time and focus on the now. As for the friends part, me too! Friends come and go for a reason. They are meant to be in a specific part of your life and when you don’t need each other they’re gone (you’ll be happy about it in the future even if you aren’t rn)! I also don’t like confrontation and when someone attacks or targets me when i’m not in the wrong. What you’re feeling now is something that will pass. So enjoy every bit of your day and focus on gratitude!!

-H