I love someone for the first time

I’m in my teens and haven’t really been in the dating scene due to just being too young really, and I’m awkward as hell. I met them a couple of years ago in the first year of Highschool. At the start we absolutely hated each other, but now they make me feel so much different it’s so odd. We’ve been dating since June and my feelings for them have only progressed from there.

Something that’s on my mind constantly, though, is that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over them. It’s a Highschool relationship, of course it won’t last forever, but I don’t think I can stand the thought of having to forget about them. I try not to think about the future because it’s better to enjoy the now but in every social relationship I’ve had in recent years, wether that be friendship or not, I’ve always felt that impending doom that one day I’ll never speak to any of them again.

This is a lot less harsh compared to the other posts on here but I’m just so so scared of getting left behind by people because I struggle to do it to others myself. Hell, I’m not over the friend I had for a year when I was 5. I have no real problems, only false fabricated ones but this one just takes a toll on me