Hello!! My name is Mariana and I'm still young too, I have exactly the same thoughts as you, the same things worry me. But its okay. Those thoughts are completely normal and everyone has/had them, okay? And everything will turn out fine! Let's focus on the present!! When the future comes, you'll know what to do. But TODAY, today everythings is alright, everyone loves you and will always do. There will be always people by yourside helping you, you'll NEVER be alone!! Life isn't as short as you think, everything will be alright and you will definitely find someone you love, with time. Growing up is tough, Im also really jealous everytime I see a kid at the streets!!! I just want to be a little kid again!! But its okay, just think about those little kids nowadays, they will grow up too, they will experience the same things you and me are experiencing right now. Don't you worry about your job!! Dont worry about anything from the future!!! You still have sooo much time to live and you are so smart, you can do it so easily, just worry about the PRESENT, and the present only <333 If you want to talk more, here is my instagram: @marymation