There's nothing I hate more than being blue ticked
My boyfriend blue ticked 8 messages I sent and I hate it. I told him in one of the texts that he doesn't have to reply right away because I understand that he's busy but that was yesterday. I sent him a text after that later in the evening and then went to bed. I wake up to another blue tick and no message. I figure that's fine maybe he saw it at night and decided to reply in the morning. Well I text him this afternoon to greet him for the day and ask him if he's still coming over tonight, Sunday's are supposed a day we spend together. It was an idea he came up with when I communicated that I felt neglected. Well he blue ticked that text as well. I waited 2 hours and then I called him to ask him what was going on and he said he was busy and that we would talk later. Him being busy is understandable but not having the decency to tell me he saw my messages and would reply when he got the chance isn't. I've told him before about why I'm sensitive to being blue ticked.
From the time I was 13 to 24 I had an emotionally unavailable best friend who would go days, sometimes weeks to reply to my messages or calls. She suffered from depression so I excused it,accepted it. The more she ignored me the more I would try to support her. It wasn't until she was diagnosed with asocial personality disorder that we both became aware of how emotionally abusive our dynamic was. I clung to her because when I was 13 I was framed by a classmate of starting a Facebook gossip page that would spread rumors about classmates. She was the only one who stood by me and after that I didn't trust anyone else. I kept all my other friends on a superficial level never allowing myself to trust them. She was my only friend and my abuser. She was doing to me what her parents had done to her in childhood. I'm not angry at her because I understand why she was the way she was. I wasn't perfect either,I acknowledge that but my point is I'm triggered by the blue tick for a reason and when it happens in a row over a span of 2 days it's hard. I am hurt because all I ask for is a text saying "I can't reply but I will later,love you too." That took my less than 10 seconds to type and I'm only using one hand.
That's all. Thanks for listening.
From the time I was 13 to 24 I had an emotionally unavailable best friend who would go days, sometimes weeks to reply to my messages or calls. She suffered from depression so I excused it,accepted it. The more she ignored me the more I would try to support her. It wasn't until she was diagnosed with asocial personality disorder that we both became aware of how emotionally abusive our dynamic was. I clung to her because when I was 13 I was framed by a classmate of starting a Facebook gossip page that would spread rumors about classmates. She was the only one who stood by me and after that I didn't trust anyone else. I kept all my other friends on a superficial level never allowing myself to trust them. She was my only friend and my abuser. She was doing to me what her parents had done to her in childhood. I'm not angry at her because I understand why she was the way she was. I wasn't perfect either,I acknowledge that but my point is I'm triggered by the blue tick for a reason and when it happens in a row over a span of 2 days it's hard. I am hurt because all I ask for is a text saying "I can't reply but I will later,love you too." That took my less than 10 seconds to type and I'm only using one hand.
That's all. Thanks for listening.
