i need help

i want to runaway to that place its suffocating me
i want to meet new people, new place to go
i want to experience something new
i want to leave everything behind
its just im so tired everything is the same its like im in the loophole that i cant do anything, its like im stuck inside a bottle
i need help but it sucks that i have to pay a dollar so i can have a therapy
i want to change so much and ill be glad someone could help me and that would be a lot of thanks please im begging i need help