Tired of people

I'll cut to the chase.

I used to run an online community, I left it because I thought these people were my friends and I realized how taken for granted it was.

Idk, I wasted an entire year being invested in friendships that I forgot about myself. All year I see these guys having the time of their lives while I'm wallowing and struggling to move forward. I just hope I could someday gain the energy to fight for myself