I feel bad

I feel bad talking to my mom and I feel bad every time I talk to someone about my problems and it makes me want to cry I feel bad because I always to my friends but I never give them the chance to listen to me and support me even tho they want to I feel bad because I think I have depression and adhd but I don’t want my parents to know and I don’t want to talk to a professional about it and I feel bad because lately I’m not sleeping well and I’m always tired and I don’t eat a lot because I don’t feel like it and most of all I feel bad that I can’t tell anybody how I actually feel because I know that I’ll brake and I don’t wand to brake.