Trying so hard to forge a relationship with a family member, just for it to fail

My aunt, B let’s call her. Me and her have never been to close. I wish we were though, wish.

I hate that I want a relationship with her similar to my other aunt. I care about her. I use to try talking to her, hanging around her. But it’s never enough, never will be. I tried all my life.

I’ve missed my time to ever get a bond with her though. Because now she’s so focused on other things.

Sometimes I wonder if she cares about me. Or other family members. I doubt so sometimes because of the way she treats some of us.

I stayed away from her after the way she treated S(other aunt) I was so angry for so long. Till I wasn’t and I just felt sad, and depressed, and terrible.

Now I just want to sob into her shoulder, maybe hope for some comfort. That will never probably come.