There’s something off putting about me.
—Honestly, i don't even know where to begin. I’m feeling all sort of emotions, a lot is going on in my head and i don’t have the words to explain.
—I wish i had someone to talk to without feeling embarrassed, but instead the only place i feel safe to vent to are silly anonymous places or my own notes app. I wish people cared about me the same way I care about them, i alway make sure they’re doing okay and give them space or comfort when they need it, but why can I never seem to get the same returned? I’ve always noticed that there’s something awfully off about me, it’s as if everyone sees me and immediately rules me off other than typical occasional conversations, they’re still nice to me so what’s so off putting about me? I’ve changed a lot over the years, I’ve gone thru a lot of stages and development, but everyone still acts the same towards me. Whether I was mean out of self defense to protect myself from getting hurt again or now that I’ve become much more caring towards people, they still avoid me. At the beginning, I thought it was a long-term effect of people not liking me because of my past self, but now that I’ve switched schools and am studying in a different city, the same thing keeps happening. What’s so unlikable about me? What is wrong with me? Why am I so easily replaced?
—I wish i had someone to talk to without feeling embarrassed, but instead the only place i feel safe to vent to are silly anonymous places or my own notes app. I wish people cared about me the same way I care about them, i alway make sure they’re doing okay and give them space or comfort when they need it, but why can I never seem to get the same returned? I’ve always noticed that there’s something awfully off about me, it’s as if everyone sees me and immediately rules me off other than typical occasional conversations, they’re still nice to me so what’s so off putting about me? I’ve changed a lot over the years, I’ve gone thru a lot of stages and development, but everyone still acts the same towards me. Whether I was mean out of self defense to protect myself from getting hurt again or now that I’ve become much more caring towards people, they still avoid me. At the beginning, I thought it was a long-term effect of people not liking me because of my past self, but now that I’ve switched schools and am studying in a different city, the same thing keeps happening. What’s so unlikable about me? What is wrong with me? Why am I so easily replaced?
