I am so done

Every day and night I cry about my problems I was on anti depressants but stopped them and I am thinking about starting them back up because I feel my life is all falling apart I had to start living with my dad 50/50 now and I can’t stand him He is the reason for me typing this right now and he doesn’t realize how much pain and suffering he has caused me I just want to live with my mom so bad and I feel no matter who I tell about what I am going through it goes in one ear and our the other and I just miss everything I miss my friends because I had to move schools and I miss being with my mom and every time I am at my dads I cry and cry because I just want to go back home where I feel safe and comfortable and mind you I have reported my dad to cps about 3 times and my brother has reported him 2 times and my grandma has reported him 1 time I have tried to commit 2 times because of him and I was sent to a mental health facility for 5 days and these thoughts have been coming back again but I try to push them off and think about the things that make me happy and the people that make me happy but it’s hard considering moving schools and being at my dad’s house more often