This year SUCKS!

So I thought this would be THE year for me. NO its not. I'm in a complicated relationship with the guy i truly love. We are on and off. So he said why aren't we just friends with benefits. I obviously said yes because I don't want to lose him. Then people broke into the house my mom and I lived in. They broke in two times. Before they broke in the third time I woke up the one night to somone staring at me through the window so I turned around to act as if i didn't see him and I faked being a sleep. Then they broke in the third time . My mom lost her job so i don't stay with her anymore. My bestfriend has a love hate friendship with me for some reason. I'm stressing so much about shcool. I just want the year to end so I can start over.