embarassment

i like this person but i dont want to like him because i want to follow my plan i dont want to fall inlove.
i have this issue on myself that i always fall inlove easily to anyone and i became obsess with them and i want to change that. i want to stop keeping falling inlove easily and rn the person im falling for was apologizing even it wasnt even his fault i feel so selfish i feel like im the one who is apologizing and i want to get away from him i want to build a wall between us until i finally understand myself whats wrong with me.
i actually thought im ok but then i realized i wasnt.