i just wanna be in my bones

i wish i were sinny, i wish my clothes suited big to me, my ribs were marked, i wish i had no strong to stand, to talk. i wish I weighed 30kg or 55 pounds, I wish my legs were like a stick, I wish my stomach was sunken and my ribs were "more outside" than it. I wish I had a marked jaw. I wish to be sick and skinny, I wish that my fat could disappear when I blink. "but you're already 100 pounds (40kg) that's already skinny enough" it's not. its never enough, i don't even have a thin waist, god. I'm not skinny a a ball, and you're just lying.