I was never one to push away people. My problem was letting them go when they weren't good for me or that they were quietly just letting me go live my own life. My last long term relationship fizzled out that way until I said enough is enough. I'm not going to be ignored and disrespected, so I made it known that she's on her own and that I'm not gonna be around trying to beg for a relationship that's already dead (her choice in that for pretending I don't exist just because we had to leave a dangerous situation, and had to be physically apart for a little while). Of course, she made it out to me being a jerk and that I left her because everyone is just a jerk towards her and is out to get her. Victim mentality just to hide all her lies. I think she just wanted a solid reason to leaving me, and I gave her one for my own well-being. Do I regret saying anything now? Absolutely not. I haven't dated since then because I have to get my life together and repair what she destroyed. Because of my commitment to her, my credit is screwed up, I don't have a vehicle, had ended up homeless for a period of time, had no phone to contact anyone, and I'm just fortunate that I have family to fall back on. I don't talk about that openly except here just to make a point. Sometimes it's just better to be alone than with someone who you can't trust or isn't going to make an equal effort for you. Those people I'd push away for the right reasons. Who knows you may have dodged a bullet? Idk.