I feel like uhhh idkkkk

At this point I’m so fed up lmao, EVERY SINGLE MORNING I wake up to my mom calling me to do chores, my sister on her device, my grandma outside doing gardening stuff outside, basically everyone in this household never interact anymore. (Basically I don’t feel like a member of this family anymore, feels more like a housemaid ). I also barely get time to interact with my friends online since I “basically” have to do chores in order to be a “perfect” wife in the future. Even though EVERY TIME I get on my phone they’d always go “are you talking to a boy?” Like come on please, I rarely get time to talk to my friends and now you’re assuming that I’m talking to some guy? Seeing my friends going on trips with their family or basically just doing basic family activities broke me, I always imagined back times when my parent were still together. I always feel awkward around my dad too, I never wanted to feel that way, but it’s just I haven’t interacted with him for so long I forgot what he likes and dislikes and everything, My birthday is upcoming and I am not even happy about it anymore, my mom and grandma would constantly fight on my birthday for the stupidest reason ever, my dad would constantly be busy at work, he never have time for me, even though i am still his daughter by blood. I just wish everything was like before.