your appearence is just a like a title if you keep telling yourself you aren't perfect or your body is disgusting. then you will be but if you start to try and appreciate yourself and ignore what others are saying. because i'm sure you are an amazing person and i'm not talking about look cause that doesn't matter , you are going through something no one should and i can't say i know what you are going through and i can't say that it's gonna be alright cause i don't know how you feel but i know that if you try and start to love youself more , things may start to look better and if you try to look on the bright side maybe everything would work out and i know it's not that easy to suddenly love yourself so, take some time , and maybe you will heal , it might take a really long time but it depends on how much you try to heal. so good luck and don't give up because i have faith in you and please don't ever call yourself disgusting because no one deserves to be called disguting or call themselves disgusting.