this is a bit darker than my other posts

i've been struggling with myself, my faith, my responsibilities and also just everything in general. i'm tired and i'm stressed but i have no one to tell it to. i feel pressured yet i still go on with my day as if nothing happens. i tell my teachers "it's okay i can do it" when they need me to finish something up, when i breakdown infront of my laptop everytime i have to. i don't know if i am a good person honestly. i don't think i should even have this title. i feel like i'm too slow and lazy and i'm not doing enough. it always feels like i'm lacking everywhere and i can be replaced at any time. i cried again when i tried to be even more patient but i was at my limit, and no one understood how tired i am. how i want to just lie in my bed and never wake up again. i act like i don't care and laugh as if i don't have a care in the world but deep down i care too much to the point it overwhelms me. i'm glad that i could at least vent here.

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Queendragonfly · 31-35, F

It's great that you feel you can vent. That's a good self care step.

Who's a bad person for not being the fastest in the world? You're having such harsh expectations on yourself. You're forgetting you're human. With flaws. Like me and everyone else.

Most of the pressure comes from yourself to be more do more be perfect. Perfect is not real. Leave that concept entirely. The sooner the better.

School is tough sometimes. Is there anyway to get extra support in school? After hours at school with a teacher for example ? Ask for more support. That's your right.

Don't think you must solve everything all on your own. We are social people. We are made to help and get help from eachother.

Go easy on yourself. You aren't an elite player. You're a kid in school.

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