K I can’t say I 100% get you, I don’t live in your shoes.. I came here to vent for myself and somehow saw this posting. I do feel like I understand a little bit of what you are putting out there.. going through similar myself. I just wanted you to know I read this posting, it didn’t go unnoticed..
i feel the same . you are not alone in this situation . i total can relate . all you can do is hope for the best thats if hope is still there. i would seek out to others like minded .surround yourself with positve people.