Heavy vent

I have.. So much to say. Idk where to start. Lets start with... Me. Im a very jealous and emotional person. I get super attached to people and then get super jealous when their spending time with other people or anything like that. I cry when people raise their voice at me. My gf broke up with me a couple months ago cause she said she felt straight which I support completely but she went and got in a relationship two days later and it broke me. I told her i didn't care and i was over it but I was not over it... I would sit in my room and bawl my eyes out because i thought i did something wrong and asking myself why she left me. Werr still friends and we still talk and i still love her but I know she will never love me back again. I do sh. Started a couple months ago wanted to try it, turned into an addiction. Starve myself, take mood medicine im not supposed to. Developed these weird panic attacks that I get their hard to explain. Constantly checking my weight and if i feel too fat ill go do a mini workout till my body hurts hoping i losed some weight, the starving has been super off and on for like a year. Parents are constantly asking me to do chores and things. i have a sibling who is fully capable of doing these chores too but they dump them on me. They call me lazy for laying around all day and then tease me about it when i go do stuff like its surprising i have a life. my sibling will come and my room and mess with me or tear up my bed and then go back to sitting on the couch like they do everyday just sitting there playing games and my parents still act like im lazy. Ive been really debating on committing suicide these past couple months and ive been super close to doing it. i just want this to be over.

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I don’t know if you’re looking for advice or not, but here’s mine: Seek professional help. A therapist or a trusted adult will do you so much than if you just bottle it all up.
I am definitely not a professional, but I am willing to listen to you vent/rant whatever if you want to message me directly.

Listen, this is going to sound so cliché but it’s true. You are worth so much. You are working so hard and people are proud of you. Things are hard right now, yes, but you have to push through that to get to so much more. Please don’t take your life now because the world is evolving and changing, and the people in it are too- for better or worse. You have to trust that maybe things will take a turn for the better and that your life will change if you just push through now.

You can do this and, again, I am totally here to talk if you’re willing. Sounds to me like you just need support and that I am willing to give.

Again, please just push forward. You’re doing so great and everything will eventually get easier if you focus on your future.

CookieHappy · 16-17

I hear you. I'm also a very sensitive person and feel some of the things you do. And you know what, that's okay. Unless it stops you from doing everyday things, then it's perfectly fine. Sometimes we also tend to have more empathy too. Have you thought of finding alternatives to sh? Maybe a rubber band could work but please don't cut yourself or do anything to put yourself in danger. And I know this is hard to believe, but people do care. Even complete strangers. You won't believe it but some people are very caring, even if its a stranger. A lot of people like you don't see their worth or that people care, but they do. They really do, even if they don't show it.

notbrokiebear · F

hey im like that too and all i can say is dont think its your falt if some1 dosint text you back and also its not your falt ppl js dont under stand this smts

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