Inner feelings , toxic ex friends and fantasies

So tbh idk if I’m crazy or something but my mind has been exploding with the weirdest but also oddly comforting things. It’s me and my bfs one year anniversary we spent some time together but he got tired and fell asleep ..kinda disheartening but tbh it’s whatever I guess. But because of boredom I downloaded insta and just went to check out my ex friends page and saw she posted a new pic and my other ex friend (we were a friend group) complimented on her pic even tho a few weeks ago she was saying how ugly and sad that specific girl was ?? (I cut her off like a few weeks ago because she was really judgmental towards people on her private story and I was scared she was secretly doing that to me) [btw a whole load of stuff went down between them it’s really hard to explain everything but in short I was suffering from really bad acne and had messy short hair from cutting it off, also I was severely underweight from an ED - this was back in 2021 when I was like 15 so it’s not really that significant but back then it was, because I was depressed and they basically put me down and she had her guy friend ig?? Idk put me down by saying I was ugly or something and she just laughed and didn’t defend me or whatever. I think she did that because apparently she was scared I was gonna steal her boyfriend it was really weird) (and the other girl who I cut off was/used to be my best friend but then she treated me like shit for being autistic and basically treated me like an absolute joke that she was better than me, put me down and believed stupid stuff) now I just had a random vision of my boyfriend hanging out with me and I see them (my ex toxic friends) randomly at the shopping centre and him putting his arms around me and walking in front of them- kinda like an “f you” for all that trash you put me through back then.. ya know? And then them looking at me and seeing how much I transformed (like my look- i have long hair now, style and, no acne, and managed to get a bf)

Am I crazy or obsessed? 😭