Im crying of anger and dissapointement

So ive had an english exam so i could go at some english related highschool in my country and ive failed it and when we had to see the results literally everyone pressed me to tell them how much i got and stuff ( i wasnt accepted ) and im not really the type what lies but i would most likely be called a dissapoinment , be judged , hated even more , compared to other kids especially my cousin because my mom is so obsessed with him lately
I told them that ive passed it and now my mom is reminding me like everyday of it bc ive told her that ive met some girl and we had convo (i barely talk with people ,thats so hard for me to do) and yes i even disabled my notifications just not to see the messages and forget about it because i feel awful about lying and i hate when im forced mentally to lie
I already dissapointed nearly everyone i dont want to add anything more in this list
I knew i couldve do this better im sorry