about today.

since ive been back from school, i dont know whats happening, i dont have the will to do anything. i just wonna lie around and watch reels. i can feel it affect me but im unable to do anything to prevent it. i just feel drained and not productive. i dont know what i should do. i want to feel alive again. its like ive lost a part of myself and it keeps going and going and going. i dont think even a little bit of me will remain soon. i wonna feel again and like be productive and not feel dead.