Tell me if I'm just being dramatic
My mom never had it easy growing up she went from living with her grandma to living with the family my grandma got married into and they treated her horribly she has alot of trauma
Fastforward I was born my dad never cared for me out the three kids my mom had only my dad is a deadbeat I'm not even mad but life wasn't always pleasant I've moved around quit alot because my mom was working and she couldn't stay with me and everywhere I moved to I experienced abuse even at kindergarten and that was the start of my trust issues the people who were supposed to protect me hirt me the most
I've realized that my mom doesn't know how to be a mom from 3rd grade right up until 8th grade my mom wasn't my favourite person
I grew paretified I had to take care of my younger cousins while their parents went clubbing at the age of 8 and upward then came my little sister I had to take care of her I practically raised her and such things took a toll on my wellbeing I wasn't always the best achiever in school and my mom would make me feel like crap about it she made me feel dumb at times when I didn't understand something and asked for help she would ridicule me or hit me she would always say the meanest things and when I called her out on it she would call my other family members and make it seem as if I'm rebellious
My high school career in terms of academics has been amazing had my ups and downs 10th grade I hit low alot was happening lost family members my aunt was in icu due to covid she was pregnant and the baby got removed prematurely and I was now a caretaker my mom would help a little but she didn't have the patience cause the baby was a crier even when you held him gave him food everything he would still cry I was in close to writing my exams I missed out on school alot Would wake up at 12,3and 5am due to the baby everyday it was a struggle
Back to why I think my mom doesn't know how to be a parent with my older sister she was a naughty kid had a baby at a young age my mom always rubs it in her face and even tells total strangers about the situation which pisses me off cause if you were to do the same to her she would make you feel bad or play victim and everytime she does something for you she runs it in your face as if parents aren't supposed to provide for their kids I never asked to be here( I'm sorry if I seem ungrateful but really If you going to do something for me do it out of the willingness of your heart) she is the type to tell people the things you told her not to tell and feel no remorse she does have good qualities God bless her but so much has happened and esp now that I'm in my last high school year I'm just ready to leave and go not to mention how she would dump her financial and emotional problems on me or how everytime she fought with my stepdad they would involve me and make me a mediator and if she was wrong and I didn't pick her side I'd never hear the end of it she would even tell me that I should go with my stepdad
It's really such things that make me wanna disappear on her I forgive her but I want to go and because of all the trauma I have I refuse to have kids because I was forced to grow up at a young age I'm now working on feeding my inner child
Fastforward I was born my dad never cared for me out the three kids my mom had only my dad is a deadbeat I'm not even mad but life wasn't always pleasant I've moved around quit alot because my mom was working and she couldn't stay with me and everywhere I moved to I experienced abuse even at kindergarten and that was the start of my trust issues the people who were supposed to protect me hirt me the most
I've realized that my mom doesn't know how to be a mom from 3rd grade right up until 8th grade my mom wasn't my favourite person
I grew paretified I had to take care of my younger cousins while their parents went clubbing at the age of 8 and upward then came my little sister I had to take care of her I practically raised her and such things took a toll on my wellbeing I wasn't always the best achiever in school and my mom would make me feel like crap about it she made me feel dumb at times when I didn't understand something and asked for help she would ridicule me or hit me she would always say the meanest things and when I called her out on it she would call my other family members and make it seem as if I'm rebellious
My high school career in terms of academics has been amazing had my ups and downs 10th grade I hit low alot was happening lost family members my aunt was in icu due to covid she was pregnant and the baby got removed prematurely and I was now a caretaker my mom would help a little but she didn't have the patience cause the baby was a crier even when you held him gave him food everything he would still cry I was in close to writing my exams I missed out on school alot Would wake up at 12,3and 5am due to the baby everyday it was a struggle
Back to why I think my mom doesn't know how to be a parent with my older sister she was a naughty kid had a baby at a young age my mom always rubs it in her face and even tells total strangers about the situation which pisses me off cause if you were to do the same to her she would make you feel bad or play victim and everytime she does something for you she runs it in your face as if parents aren't supposed to provide for their kids I never asked to be here( I'm sorry if I seem ungrateful but really If you going to do something for me do it out of the willingness of your heart) she is the type to tell people the things you told her not to tell and feel no remorse she does have good qualities God bless her but so much has happened and esp now that I'm in my last high school year I'm just ready to leave and go not to mention how she would dump her financial and emotional problems on me or how everytime she fought with my stepdad they would involve me and make me a mediator and if she was wrong and I didn't pick her side I'd never hear the end of it she would even tell me that I should go with my stepdad
It's really such things that make me wanna disappear on her I forgive her but I want to go and because of all the trauma I have I refuse to have kids because I was forced to grow up at a young age I'm now working on feeding my inner child
