My Life Is A Mess
Hello, I'm Millie and I'm 12 years old.
My life is basically pointless at this point and I really just feel like giving up on everything I've achieved. All I'm asking for is a simple break from having to stress out about things in my life, have emotional breakdowns mostly every single day, and isolate myself in my bedroom, barely eating or drinking anything.
I don't feel safe anywhere, ANYWHERE. School is probably the worst place I can ever go at this point. I know that School has the rules, the education, the types of teachers we have to deal with, and the long working hours, but there's more for me. Every single f*ck!ng day, I have to deal with humiliation, more than 15 people that pick on/bully me around my School, and throught the past 2 or 3 months (I think), I've lost 9 friends that meant too much to me. I barely have any friends now, I have more friends on Roblox than I do in real life, no wonder I spend every day on that game and never go outside and socialise.
Moving on to my family and the place I live in, my Mother has always been a stress head (She gets angry easily) and I had a bad childhood with her (She abused me for roundabout a year). My Father however is an angel and I wanna live with him and have a good life, but when I was 10, I said to my step-mother (My dad's wife) that I was positive that I wanted to live down my Mother's. If I were to tell her that I changed my mind, she would say that it's my fault.
I don't know what to do anymore, can anybody please give me some advice? Thank you for reading this
My life is basically pointless at this point and I really just feel like giving up on everything I've achieved. All I'm asking for is a simple break from having to stress out about things in my life, have emotional breakdowns mostly every single day, and isolate myself in my bedroom, barely eating or drinking anything.
I don't feel safe anywhere, ANYWHERE. School is probably the worst place I can ever go at this point. I know that School has the rules, the education, the types of teachers we have to deal with, and the long working hours, but there's more for me. Every single f*ck!ng day, I have to deal with humiliation, more than 15 people that pick on/bully me around my School, and throught the past 2 or 3 months (I think), I've lost 9 friends that meant too much to me. I barely have any friends now, I have more friends on Roblox than I do in real life, no wonder I spend every day on that game and never go outside and socialise.
Moving on to my family and the place I live in, my Mother has always been a stress head (She gets angry easily) and I had a bad childhood with her (She abused me for roundabout a year). My Father however is an angel and I wanna live with him and have a good life, but when I was 10, I said to my step-mother (My dad's wife) that I was positive that I wanted to live down my Mother's. If I were to tell her that I changed my mind, she would say that it's my fault.
I don't know what to do anymore, can anybody please give me some advice? Thank you for reading this
