addictions warning⚠️

Recently I was introduced to weed and alcohol at school (I’m only 14) I’ve been “smoking weed” since I was late 13 but it was never like a every day thing and I stopped for 3 months than I’ve recently started again and I think I messed up my whole life. I smoke everyday everywhere any time I was re introduced by my best friend and it sucks because it’s different now like it’s a constant hunger for another hit everywhere I go I wonder if I could get away with taking a hit there there’s never a minute I don’t think about it the feeing is indescribable and the
More I take the more derealization I feel after and now I’m forgetting so much about my life because of it even my family members and friends noticed a change in me I got introduced to alcohol 4 days ago but it already feels so needable I only drank a can too I was also high when I drank it too so maybe that’s linked to it but I want alcohol so bad I hate it I hate the feeling the fact im so dependent on anything the fact I’ll do anything to try to cope with my life and now I’ve damaged myself so much I never know who I am where I am why im here when im not high or drunk and when it’s after the high I get panic attacks and I have constant pains and the only relief is more.