Things are looking up

I actually have things to look forward to now. I have a new boy in my life, and im thinking about getting a new job for summer. My birthday is coming up soon in July and my sisters are coming to see me. My favorite singer, lana del rey, has dropped a new album. I finally feel like things are getting better. I haven't self harmed in weeks and I've been remembering to take my medication more often. The boy I like is coming to my city to see me during the summer. Im finally getting tested for bpd after my birthday, I can finally get some answers. Is this what Ive been waiting for? Can this be the end of a chapter? I never imagined 16 to look so good. I hardly even believe I passed 13. I'm kinda proud of myself. After all of the hospitals and all the abuse, I made it to 16. I made it to independence, where I don't have to rely on anyone elses love to feel worthy of life. I finally feel strong enough for life, like i can take anything that comes my way. I finally feel good now that hes gone.