I dont know

Well,my dad has anger issues which has greatly affected my mental health,hes always discouraging me and calls me uselles,hopeless,stupid,mistake everyday ive been venting to my friends recently but its funny to them idk why does it have to be me who gets all the hate,i get bullied because i simply say i want help with my mental health,i really dont know what to do

My friends are really toxic,but its so hard to leave them because we live in a hostel together i get called miss wannabe daddy issues,i really dont know what to do,sometimes i feel like ending it all but i dont although i still have dreams but they get laughed at,i pretend not to care but simply cant it hurts deep inside especially when your own parents laugh at it

I hope i find someone like me