i don’t know what to do anymore.
so,, hey. thanks for reading this. I’ve been down for a while and it’s not getting any better and I don’t know what to do anymore.
a year ago in january, my dad and i got in a fight. since then, he hasn’t talked to me at all and has been avoiding me yet we live in the same house ( my grandmas + our rooms are right by each other ) he doesn’t have a job and the last time he had one was when i was little. anyways, i apologized to him and tried to have a talk with him when I did get to see him and i tried to say hi a few times. no response. just an empty stare. my mom isn’t there that much either. she’s recovering from her last abusive relationship and she’s not there much. i barely see either of my parents and i was raised by the internet.
recently, my friends have been leaving me out frequently. one of them ( the one im the closest to ) has been avoiding me and ive caught her talking behind my back. she never talks to me but talks to her guy friends or any other friend besides me. she never asks me if im okay and my other friends judge me in the same away or like to judge me. i feel so alone. i apologize to them but they never try to resolve what’s wrong. i don’t feel good enough for anyone. i feel like if i just act how they want me to act maybe they’ll like me better. i don’t know. just thanks for hearing me out i guess.
a year ago in january, my dad and i got in a fight. since then, he hasn’t talked to me at all and has been avoiding me yet we live in the same house ( my grandmas + our rooms are right by each other ) he doesn’t have a job and the last time he had one was when i was little. anyways, i apologized to him and tried to have a talk with him when I did get to see him and i tried to say hi a few times. no response. just an empty stare. my mom isn’t there that much either. she’s recovering from her last abusive relationship and she’s not there much. i barely see either of my parents and i was raised by the internet.
recently, my friends have been leaving me out frequently. one of them ( the one im the closest to ) has been avoiding me and ive caught her talking behind my back. she never talks to me but talks to her guy friends or any other friend besides me. she never asks me if im okay and my other friends judge me in the same away or like to judge me. i feel so alone. i apologize to them but they never try to resolve what’s wrong. i don’t feel good enough for anyone. i feel like if i just act how they want me to act maybe they’ll like me better. i don’t know. just thanks for hearing me out i guess.
